this bug of loneliness

I guess bhaiya is not gonna like this blog … because it is kind of senti, but the fact is that this bug of loneliness is biting deep into me. I don’t have any lack of friends, but the fact is that back home there is absolutely no one with whom I can talk or just spend time with. It is just that I go to tution, have a nice time there, but as turn I homewards, my steps become slow and heavy – at home, its either the computer or music or books (academic or otherwise) and I am beginning to get sick of them. It’s alright for sometime, but then you get completely pissed off. You yearn for some human company but it is just not there … Bhaiya, Didi, Rohit Bhaiya … why have you all gone so far away leaving me all alone?

And the worst part is that it is gonna stay this way for sometime now – bhaiya n didi, u people are not going to come for many months now… Rohit Bhaiya ... you may be back before them, but still it’s more than 2 months away. And by then my tuitions will also get over… whatever will happen then?


There is no one with whom I can share a cup of late night coffee, no one in whose company I can listen to music or watch movies, no one to talk of old times or just get lost in some adda...


I am not depressed or anything, but still - this bug, on certain days, begins to bite deep into my skin, and I feel like crying out in pain – but what’s the use … There is no one to hear my cries…