Sunday, April 16, 2006

Missing the craziness

I have 3 very simple dreams:

- To see Sachin Tendulkar score a blazing century at the Edens
- To watch a live concert of Pink Floyd
- To travel across Europe with my love interest (and yes the gondolas of Venice)

This is the real Kushal - the crazy Kushal.

I have madness bubbling inside me, but I just can't let it out. I have to be sensible and good. There are things I am supossed to do because of a million reasons and I just can't ignore them. And over the next 3 years (i.e. PWC years) I don't think I'll get an opportunity to do all the mad things I have always yearned to do, but haven't been able to - a trek in the Himalayas, a week at a Wildlife Sanctuary, etc.

These things seem so distant - nowadays I hardly get to meet my friends even. Everyone's busy with office. Even weekends are not spared and if they are, we feel like spending it with our families.

They say life is not a bed of roses and I completely agree. No, I am not cribbing. I am very happy with what I am doing because I know I am doing the right thing. [Today morning I happened to attend a Gita Class, where it was said that nothing can give more satisfaction than doing what we are supposed to do] Quite right. And then, I only think that doing mad things like those mentioned above will please me ... I can never be sure that they really will ... its just my conception.

But still, all said and done, I am missing the craziness ... getting wet in the rain, flying kites in the evening or simply doing nothing at all ...

" The grass was greener
The light was brighter
The taste was sweeter
The nights of wonder
With friends surrounded
The dawn mist glowing
The water flowing
The endless river
Forever and ever"